The “tire pressure monitoring system” in our Subaru isn’t working. I took the car in for service this morning but the same issue emerged in the evening (technology!).
Last week, I received a bill for my yearly mammogram, which my insurance covers. Today, I called the insurance company (no, don’t pay the bill), then I phoned the radiology department (sorry, we made a mistake).
My day ended with a trip to Penzy’s for curbside pickup. My order included a “Choose Love” yard sign. I received the sign (yay!), but no frame with which to prop it up (out of stock).
This is life. And it’s especially life during a global pandemic. Mistakes are made, expectations aren’t met, and disappointment (or frustration) follows. Right now, everyone is meeting their edge. And our edge meets the edge of others. We’re bumping into ourselves and each other. Still, we can pause, breathe, and soften.
I have a working car. A car that reliably gets us where we need to go. A car that has seat warmers (holy wow! especially for my freezing-cold self).
I have health insurance. Each year, I receive a mammogram for free. And, as a special bonus, my mammogram showed nothing suspicious (yay!).
I have fresh spices from Penzy’s, a local company that values people, community, and social justice. I have a new sign to share in my front yard, with whatever make-shift system my (amazing!) husband concocts.
S**t happens. And we have a choice in how we respond. I don’t always do it with grace, but I try. And when I lose it, I make amends and begin again. We’re all doing the best we can with the resources (inner and outer) that we have.
Even on the worst days, there are slivers of light. Moments of gratitude, ease, and connection. Moments of ordinary beauty. Moments of clarity and kindness. If we string a few of these together, we build momentum. Not blazing energy to change the world, but enough energy to positively impact our square-footage of life.
