I paused this video series. On Wednesday, I was shaken and raw. “Ordinary” business seemed unimportant. I took time to reflect, process, and feel.
Brokenness and Healing
After the drama and trauma of yesterday, it’s natural to cast about for distractions (this is painful!), information (who’s to blame?), and justice. I check the news, look at social-media messages from respected people, and scan email for nuggets of good. Yet here I am still in confusion, pain, and disbelief.
What's Real: Racism
This morning, I intended to record another What’s-Real video. The topic: racism. No charges brought against the officer who shot Jacob Blake seven times in the back. My sad, embarrassed feelings about being white and, thus, being part of white supremacy. Another person of color shot by police. Another police officer not charged with a crime.
Day 5: What's Real (blahness)
Day 4: What's Real (self-compassion)
Yesterday, I accomplished a task that’s been on my to-list for 7 months. It only took 20 minutes. Rather than celebrating, I thought, “Why did I wait so long?” Today, I worked on a project, which I thought would take 2 hours yet extended far beyond that time (and it’s not yet complete). Again, the judgment, “Why is this taking so long?” as if it’s a personal flaw.